i never learn

a few years ago i was asked to write some case studies for a very serious and prestigious teenage girls' magazine. this means that i made up "real life" stories that were relevant to certain articles. sorry to burst any bubbles, but those stories are indeed ficticious. i tried to spice things up a bit by giving the characters ethnically diverse names such as "ameesha" and "raghnild", however the magazine didn't think that such names complimented the images of bikini-clad skinny white girls that appropriately accompanied every article. and so "ameesha" became "tina" who blamed herself for her parents' divorce; and "raghnild" was changed to "bridget" whose boyfriend was pressuring her to have sexual intercourse with him before they were over 16 and legally married.

when i sat down to research the first case study, i made the disturbing mistake of typing the words "teenage", "girls" and "sex" into the search engine at the same time. i was promptly presented with a smorgasboard of smut from which to choose. what did i want to look at first: "lithe little lesbians", "cheerleaders' cherries" or "penny's pool party"? i must admit i was curious (i believe there's a porn-lover in all of us, just waiting to be released), but i was so worried my boss would walk by my desk and see me surfing the triple x wave that i quickly shut down my computer and then erased the internet history as soon as i turned it back on.

since that day i have been ever so careful about what i type into google when researching something at work. but today i slipped.

i am currently compiling information for articles to be written about nurses. knowing as i do - due to the birthday wishes of every ex-boyfriend to date - that nurses rate in the top ten male fantasies of all time, i should have considered that the number of nurse fetish sites on the web may even outnumber those dedicated to teenage titties. however, it seems i had a momentary mental blank, and proceeded to enter a combination of words into google that was just asking for trouble. computer shutdown. history erased once again.

will i ever learn?